Happy New Year - 2011

It's 8:25 P.M. on New Years Eve. A few more hrs. and this year will be over. Wasn't a very good year. To tell you, the last few years ain't been very good for me. Don't get me wrong, I guess it could have been a lot wores....but again, it could have been a lot better. O'well, I guess you take what's giving to you and do the best with it you can. I say this every New Years Eve, O'well, I'll say it again....I hope this is a GREAT year.

Happy New Year!!

Merry Christmas

It sure didn't seem much like Christmas for me this year. I went over to moms yesterday evening and ate Christmas dinner with her. We exchanged presents also. It was calling to get bad today, so we didn't take a chance and went on and did Christmas. The snow held off. It snowed a little this morning, but now it's snowing real good outside.

James said he had a good Christmas eve and Christmas day. I'm glad he had a good Christmas out there in Iowa! He said he liked eveything I sent him, and he said he got a lot of good stuff out there. I sure do miss him being here, but I'm glad that he is happy!

I got a new cell phone and a watch and a few other things. The cat got some new toys. :)

Well, one more week until the new year. I hope it's a better year. I seem to say that every year. O'well, I can always hope!
Merry Christmas!

Keep Christ in Christmas!

It's three days until Christmas. I've been trying, but don't think I'm going to get into the Christmas spirit too much this year. It's just hard after having James with me for the past 15 Christmas's, to get used to it by myself this year. I would put up the big tree and put Christmas decorations and lights all over the place....even outside. Then I would make sure he had LOTS of presents under the tree Christmas morning. We would always make Christmas cookies on Christmas Eve....and go look at Christmas lights. Just a lot of little things we did together at Christmas time.

I really do hope James has a GREAT Christmas in Iowa this year. Like I have always said, I want James happy, no matter if it's here in Virginia, or out there in Iowa!

Ever since James got on the train three weeks ago to go to Iowa, it has been COLD here in Virginia....and even snowy. Now they say we ''may'' get snow on Christmas day. I hope it don't get bad, at least until later Christmas night.

One thing I hate, that I have seen more of this year, is that a lot of places and people are saying ''Happy Holidays'' Instead of ''MERRY CHRISTMAS''. This Country ( USA) is trying to get rid of GOD all together. Well, it's not going to work! Don't tell me ''Happy Holidays''....tell me ''Merry Christmas'' or don't say anything!
Merry Christmas!

Starting to look and feel alot like Christmas

James has been in Iowa for a week now. I talk to him every day, either on the cell phone or Facebook. I'm sure things are a big change for him out there. He won't be as spoilt out there as he has been here, that's for sure. He's had it made here all his life.

Well, Christmas is a little over two weeks. Still not really much into the Holiday Spirit, and more then likely I won't be this year. I did put a few Christmas decorations and lights up. I got James some presents. Going to box them up and send them out there to him in a day or two.

It's been cold the last week and we even got a little snow the other night. I wounder if that's a sign of another bad Winter. We really had a bad one last year. It sure is looking and feeling like it.

Bah Humbug

Well, James is in Iowa now. He got on the train Wed. at 4:05 P.M. , (it was an hr. late). He got to Iowa last night (Thur.) at 6:30 P.M. Seems some-what lonely and quiet here. It's just me and the cat.

I hope James is happy out there and stays safe. I told him if and when he wants to come back, he will ALWAYS have a home here with me....and the cat.

I'm just not in the Christmas spirit this year at all. I did put up some Christmas lights yesterday....I guess that's a start.

Bah Humbug

Feeling really sad....

Well, James is going to move to Iowa to stay with his mom. If everything go's as plan, he will get on the train Wed. and get to Iowa  on Thur. All this really came about really fast. I can't believe he wont even be here for Christmas. :(

I really am sad....but I just want him to be safe and happy.

We went over to my moms for Thanksgiving dinner today. I wasn't really in the mood, but went anyway because I know it means a lot to my mom. But I sure ain't in the holiday spirit this year at all. That's sad, because I love Christmas time....but not this year. I'm not going to even put anything up this year....not even a Christmas tree. I'm mean why?? It's going to only be me and the cat here anyway, so what's the uses??

But James knows he will ALWAYS have a home here with me!

 O'yeah....Happy Thanksgiving.

Court....

Well, James went to cout yesterday. It turned out a lot better then I thought it would. He got 50 hrs. of community service ( that he has to do in six months) and if he can stay out of trouble for a year, all the charges will be dropped. So yeah, I'm happy with how it turned out. I just hope James has learned his lesson and will be good from now on!

Hard to believe Thanksgiving is almost here....then Christmas! Seems like it was just Summer. :o

No matter what....the sun always comes up the next day

Yeah, I know....I haven't been writing in this much the last few months. The truth is a lot has been going on and ...well, I just don't feel like writing it all down. Living it is hard enough some days.

Cooler days and nights are here. Really does feel like Fall....and after that HOT Summer we had, cool is good!

Neither My Dallas Cowboys or UVA are doing too good in football so fare this season. :(

James has to go to court on the 12th of November. I HOPE he doesn't get any time. Hoping he just gets some community service. I also hopes that he starts doing what's right and doesn't ever get into anymore trouble again!!

My Aunt Barbara is up from Ga. I think she is staying at moms for two weeks. Be nice if my mom would go back to Ga. with her for some time. I know she would like that.

Physically, mentally and emotionally drained

A lot has been going on with James. I'm not going to write everything that's been going on, but let's just say he needs to get his life in order before he really screws it up! But no matter what I say to him, or what anybody tells him, he has to make his own mind up. Only he can do it.

It really makes me sad. I want what's best for my son. I hate everything that's been going on with him. I don't want him to mess his future up. All this is making me old fast. It seems like every day now it's something new. I'm just physically, mentally and emotionally drained. :(

If it ain't one thing....it's another

If it ain't one thing, it's another. Lets just say James hasn't been listening too good. I don't know what's wrong with the boy. If he doesn't start listening better, he is going to get himself into some big trouble. I hate it, but don't know what more to do. :(

Fall is almost here, and I'm glad. It's been a long hot Summer, (and once again, not a very good Summer). To tell you the truth, I can't remember the last ''good'' anything I've had...Summer, Winter, Spring or Fall. O'well, just got to go with it, I guess. Take it as it comes....

Football season is here. UVA ,(Virginia) won their first game last weekend. Dallas playes their first game this Sunday night against the deadskins.

Back to school, back to normal....I guess

So, James come home a week ago Tuesday. He started school this past Tuesday. More or less it's back to normal....and that's not really a good thing. We are going next Thursday to get some ''help'' with James. I hope it works. I really want James to get his act together before he gets himself into some BIG trouble. James is a good person, he just needs to start making the right choices and stop hanging with people that are trouble makers. I know sometimes that's hard for a teenager to do, but he has to. That's all there is to it.

Been a year....

Hard to believe it was a year ago today that I went to the hospital, (the first time). I remember that Saturday evening it got to the point that I had to call 911 for the ambulance to come and get me. I couldn't believe when they told me at the hospital that I had less then 1/3 the blood in me that I should have had.

They pumped 5 units of blood into me over the next few days. They was pumping blood into one arm, and kept taking blood out of the other arm every few hrs. Nope, wasn't too fun.

Well, a few weeks later I went to UVA for an operation for the tumor. They sent me home, and in a few days my leg, (where they took the skin graft from) got infected. I couldn't even move my leg an inch because of the PAIN. Well, back to the hospital again. After being there all day, they sent me over to UVA in an ambulance. They kept me for another four days. Between my chest and leg, it was a lot of pain, to say the least.

Talking about pain, the morning they took all those staples out of my leg, (when it was infected) was unbelievable pain! They even gave me Morphine, and it didn't help any.

My leg is all better now. My chest, well, I still have pain sometimes. I have to go back to UVA in October for a check up for it. They said even after all of this, it still cold come back. Lets hope not....

And with some other things that has been going on in my life, this hasn't been the best 12 months of my life. But as people say ''look on the bright side of things''. That's not always easy....but I guess it's not meant to be.

Coming home

Well, James wants to come back home. He has been out in Iowa with his mom for a month. He called me a few days ago and said he wanted to come back home. If everything works out right, he should come home Tuesday.

I talked to him and told him if he wanted to come back he was going to have to listen a lot better....and I do mean a lot better, and also have respect for people. I hope he does! James is a good boy. I think it has a lot to do with who he hangs around with.... and he is also trying to grow up too fast.

School starts in less then two weeks, (Aug. 17th). So, if James gets back on the 10th, he will only have a week until school.

Birthday....

Well, today is my 45th birthday. Didn't do anything, didn't go any place. My mom came over and gave me a birthday card with some money in it. Other then that, just another day. I got a text from James saying ''happy bday''. I guess thats better then nothing. I guess he is too busy. O'well....

A little HOT.

It's been really hot this Summer. Last Winter we had all that snow and very cold temps. Now, temps in the 90's and even over 100. This past 12 months or so sure hasn't been the best times of my life, and the weather sure hasn't helped any. But heck, what are you going to do about it?

Well, I will turn 45 this Friday, (July 30th). It really is just another day. My mom always gets me a little something, but that's about it. But that's ok with me. I've never been a person that wanted a big deal made out of anything. The past few Summers ain't been that great for me anyway. Maybe I should move my bithday to the Fall. lol Fall is my favorite time of the year anyway.

The cat, (Carmen) was out on the patio yesterday and went to eat a bee. The bee stung her in her mouth. Lets just say she didn't like that too much. lol

The dog days of summer....

More hot muggy days. As cold and snowy as last Winter was, this Summer has been HOT, HOT, HOT! It's been in the 90's seems like almost every day this Summer. O'well, not much we can do about the weather.

I got my new drivers license the other day. At least I won't have to get another one for eight years, (2018).

My two tomato plants have been doing good this Summer. I have got 17 tomatoes so far, with more of them still on the plants. But to tell you the truth, I just haven't been much in a tomato mood, so have been giving them to my mom.

James

I know it's been over a month since I wrote, sorry, but a lot has been going on the past month.

First of all, about three weeks ago James got mad at me because I wouldn't let him spend the night at his girlfriends house. So he got pissed off and stayed there anyway. The next day his girlfriends mom brought him home. He came in, packed a bag and walked back out. As he walked past my car he broke the window out. He went back to his girlfriends house and stayed there a week. (O'yeah, he said he wasn't going to help me pay for the window). I could have press charges on him....but I didn't.

I got him back home on Saturday. Come Wednesday James had the cops here along with his mom, (if you want to call her that). James told the cops he wanted to go to Iowa. The cop told me since I couldn't find the custody papers that night, I couldn't stop him from going with his ''mom''. (I've found out since then, I could have).

So right now James is in Iowa without my permission. I'm not for sure what I'm going to do yet. Since I found the custady papers, I can get his ''mom'' for kidnapping James, and I can also report James as a runaway. So I'm not sure what I'm going to do as of yet.

Since the custady papers say that James is ''in the physical care and control'' of me, ANYTHING his mom does with james right now is illegal. So I'm sure it's only a matter of time....

Hot muggy days....

Not too much been going on. James got out of school this past Tuesday for the Summer. He has a part time job for seven weeks, that he starts Monday. I think it will be good for him....hope so anyway.


Been hot and muggy, but I guess that's what you get in the Summer time. I like days in the mid 70's, but we don't seem to get a lot of those. Ether hot and muggy or cold and snowy. O'well, take what we get I guess.

Summer time is here!

Hope everyone had a good Memorial Day. We didn't do a lot. They had school (snow make up day), but I didn't make James go to school. Speaking of school, they get out for the Summer on Tuesday. It's been hot, and the lightning bugs our out....so I guess it's Summer time!

Back to UVA....

Went to UVA On Monday. They said my chest was doing ok, and that everything looked normal, (as normal as it can look). They did find a stapel and pulled it out....that didn't feel too good. For my two numb fingers, they ain't going to do anything about it now. They said unless I start to lose feeling in them, that they wont operate. So guess I will just have to live with thw numness for now....unless I can find a Dr. that will operate.

James is over at his girlfriends house to day. They get out of school for the Summer on the 8th of June.

I already got nine little tomateos on my tomatoe  plants. Hope they do good this Summer. My Sunflower plants are getting tall. Should be real pretty in time to come.

O'yeah, that picture at the top was taking in West Virginia last weekend. Ain't it beautiful?!?!

And the goofy weather keeps going....

After the coldest and snowiest Winter on record, this Spring has been....well, lets just say a little crazy! It will get hot a for a few days, (up in the 90's), then down in the 50's a few days. Back and forth. Been like that since Easter, (the first of April). I can see why I can't get over this stupid head cold that I have had for over two weeks.

Well, I go back to UVA on Monday. I have two appointments. One at 8:50 A.M. and one at 10:00 A.M. One is for my chest, to see if everything is going good with it. The other is for my fingers, (the two on my left hand has been numb since I got sick last Summer).

Happy Mothers Day!

I know I haven't been writing much the last month or so, but just not a lot has been going on....or I've been too lazy to update....not sure witch one. :)

The weather here has been crazy! Hot a few days and then cool, then back to hot. I can see why I have a cold....

Happy Mothers Day to all the great moms out there that took care of your kids, (or are taking care of your kids). It's soo easy for a mom to give up their kids these days, just because it's too hard for them....or they choose a boyfriend over top of their kids....or whatever. It takes a REAL woman to raise a child, and a Real mother to always be there for their child....no matter what.

Not too much been going on....

Not too much has been going on. The hot temps we had a few weeks ago didn't stay around for too long. We had days in the 50's and nights in the 30's since it got up to 90. Mother Nature has been a little mixed up.

My Aunt Barbara and two of my cousins came up and stayed at moms last week.

O'yeah, our Hampster died. We found him in his food bowl. :(

Like I said, not a lot been going on....

HOT....

Well, it has felt like Summer the last week, not Spring. The past three days it got up to 90 degrees! But a cool front is moving in today and was only up to 79.

Was a nice Easter. Was sunny and in the 80's all weekend. Took James to the store and let him pick some things out he wanted for Easter, (I also got him some candy....what's Easter without candy?)

I got my tomato plants last week and some Sunflower seeds and some other seeds. I took all my plants out on the patio yesterday....it was a long Winter for them in my Livingroom.

....and life goes on

Well, my cousin Shelby was was laid to rest this past Wednesday. In other words, Heaven got a new Angel. She is going to be missed by a lot of people and a little girl will grow up without a mother, but I guess life goes on. I guess that's how life is meant to be. Life and death....

Guess Spring isn't here yet. 40's yesterday and calling to only be in the 50's the next three or four days. That's ok....it will get here when it's ready.

On a nice note, James got his report card this week.....and all B's and C's!  I was really happy about that. I hope he keeps it up from now on.

Easter is only a week away. Seems like it was just Christmas with two feet of snow on the ground. I guess it's true what they say about getting older....time goes by fast the older you get.

Rest in peace Shelby Faith Johnson

They did a brain scan on my cousin Saturday and seen that she was brain dead. She past away Saturday night. It's so hard to understand how something like this could happen. It's so so sad! She was a beautiful 21 year old woman with a baby girl. It's sad when an older person dies of old age, but for a young person to die just out of the blue....it's just not right.

I feel really bad for everybody in the family, but really heart broken for her mom and dad. I can't even try to understand how hard it is on them. :(

Shelby past away on the first day of Spring. I'll never think of this day the same way ever again...

Shelby, heaven isn't ready for you yet....

My Cousin Shelby Went to the hospital Saturday night with back pain and throwing up. They sent her home but she went back Sunday morning. They was going to send her back home, but things got worse. They think she had some kind of infection in her heart. They airlifted her to another hospital...then that hospital sent her to another hopital, but before they could get her airlifted the 2nd time her heart stopped.

It was stopped for about 15 minutes before they could get it back beating again. The Dr's said they didn't think she would make it to the hospital after that....but she did. Then late Sunday night she had emergency heart surgery to put a pump in her heart, (her heart was beating too fast). Once again the Dr's said they didn't think Shelby would make it....but she did!

It's Friday now and she hasn't woke up yet. They are going to operate again today to take the pump out of her heart.

Shelby is a young beautiful woman with a baby. She has her whole life ahead of her! There in no way something like this should have happend to her....but it did.

Sheby needs to wake up....heaven can wait.

New Cell Phone

James spent the night with his Grandmas last night and he went to church with his friends this morning...so I'm here alone, well..me and the cat and the hampster.

Boy, am I getting Spring Fever more and more! Calling to be in the upper 50's to around 60 the next few days!! O'yeah baby...(then watch it turn around and snow another foot of snow). lol

I am getting a new phone this week. Coming in the mail Monday or Tuesday. It's a '' Verizon Razzle ''. I love getting a new phone from Verizon every 20 months!

The ACC Tournament Starts this week, then the NCAA Tournament starts next week. I love watching the Tournaments....just Wish UVA would have kept playing good, they have lost their last nine game! :(

Cold snowy days....

Once again not much has been going on around here. Just cold snowy days...that's about it.

My moms Birthday was last Thursday. Me and James went over there and gave her her Birthday presents.

UVA's Basketball team started out so good....but now, not so good at all. They have lost their last seven ACC games....damnit!!

I guess one good thing is that it's March...not too long until Spring now. O'yeah, calling for more snow today and tonight...lol.

Spring Fever

 I know...it's been over a week since I wrote on this. Sorry, but the truth is not a lot has been going on......just cold and snow! Yeah, boring...but Spring has to get here one day!

  I really do have Spring fever. So ready to get my flowers out on the patio and start growing some Tomato plants!! I didn't get to enjoy last Summer and last Fall much at all, with me being sick and the Hospital...

  Speaking of the Hospital, I need to go back to UVA for two checkups sometime soon. I hope everything turns out ok!

  Our new kitten is growing fast...and getting into my damn plants!! Every time I turn around I catch her trying to dig them up or play with them... :(

So Much Snow!

This has been one hell of a Winter so far! Just about once or twice a week we get snow....and just not little snows....I'm talking in feet. Also it has got down to -9 below three times this Winter....that's COLD!! I don't ever remember getting so much snow and getting so cold here in Virginia....and it's calling for even more snow tomorrow. The kids ain't even been to school since Jan. 29th!

COLD! COLD! COLD!

Not too much has been going on. We got about 6 inches of more snow Saturday. Boy did it get COLD last night. It got down to -9 below! That's really cold for Virginia!!

James's Birthday was Thursday. He turned 15 years old. I took him and one of his friends out for pizza for his Birthday meal and his Grandma made him a Birthday cake.....and no, he got no gifts or money from his mom....AGAIN.

I need to go back over to UVA to get my chest checked soon...and I also need to get my numb two fingers on my left hand worked on. If it ain't one thing it's another...

Damn Dallas Cowboys! ...O'yeah, we got a new kitten!

So, My Dallas Cowboys pissed me off Sunday. Lost 34-3....damn it! O'well, there is always next season.....hmmmmmmm. UVA s doing real good so far this season in basketball. They are 12-4 and 3-0 in the ACC...alone in first place!! Go Wahoos!!

Well, we got a kitten last Thursday. It's a cute little thing....little over two months old. James has been taking good care of it....so far.

James will turn 15 the 28th of this month.....so hard to believe. He is growing up SOO FAST! Way too fast if you ask me.

How 'bout them Cowboys....and UVA!

Well, my Dallas Cowboys won last night in the first round of the playoffs! Also, UVA won yesterday there first ACC game (9-4 1-0)....nice!

James went over to his new girlfriends house yesterday and spent the day. She seems like a nice girl (but they all do at first) lol.

It's been really cold here this Winter. 5 degrees this morning...7 degrees yesterday morning....berrrrrrrr. Heck, the snow we got over three weeks ago is still on the ground. That's tells you how cold it's been!

Other then that, not a lot has been going on.....

Happy New Year

Well, it's 2010. Me and James stayed home and watched the ball drop on TV. I reinstalled Windows on my computer all day New Years Eve...fun, fun! But it does make your computer run better and faster!

Only calling to be in the 20's the next few days and windy! Berrrrrrrr.....is it Spring yet?

We went out to Wal-Mart yesturday and I got a few things for home. I have been doing some cleaning and moving things around...Spring cleaning a little early I guess.lol

My Dallas Cowboys has a BIG game tomorrow! If they win, they win the NFC EAST! Go Cowboys!